This is MY life.
Posted on: Saturday, May 30, 2009
Posted at: 01:08
Posted at: 01:08
What a life. A FUCKED UP life, where everyone just screw each other for the sake of screwing. What's the point of doing something when others don't appreciate your actions? What's the point? Pointless lor. It's that simple. Straight forward. And I just don't understand why I'm so FUCKING NAIVE TO THINK THAT WAY WHEN others are living so happily? Haha.
It feels just so fucked up when I have to go out alone ALL THE TIME and I can't jio my friends out? That kind of so-fucked-up feeling. Eat alone. Go out alone. MSN alone. Play game alone. SMS to people and they just give you a "why the fuck did you bother me" reply? When I feel lonely, who do I turn to? Those bunch of friends just giggle off when you are talking your heart out. And worst of all, at times, when I want to rant, when I want to shout out all that's inside me, I can't.
At least they have someone who is so close to them to hear you rant, hear them crying their heart out. Me? "I'll try my best to be there for you." Hahaha.. everyone knows what this means. How can that be true when they are so busy with their family, their work, their studies and with their partners? What a bullshit.
From our conversation today, I guess it's totally meaningless. So I guess I shall spend my time, my efforts and my money on doing things that I really wanted to do in the past, or maybe trying new stuff that I have the interest in. Afterall, this is my life.
It feels just so fucked up when I have to go out alone ALL THE TIME and I can't jio my friends out? That kind of so-fucked-up feeling. Eat alone. Go out alone. MSN alone. Play game alone. SMS to people and they just give you a "why the fuck did you bother me" reply? When I feel lonely, who do I turn to? Those bunch of friends just giggle off when you are talking your heart out. And worst of all, at times, when I want to rant, when I want to shout out all that's inside me, I can't.
At least they have someone who is so close to them to hear you rant, hear them crying their heart out. Me? "I'll try my best to be there for you." Hahaha.. everyone knows what this means. How can that be true when they are so busy with their family, their work, their studies and with their partners? What a bullshit.
From our conversation today, I guess it's totally meaningless. So I guess I shall spend my time, my efforts and my money on doing things that I really wanted to do in the past, or maybe trying new stuff that I have the interest in. Afterall, this is my life.
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